Yesterday I woke up with pit in my stomach. It was a familiar feeling of shame and inadequacy.
My business is going through a growth spurt, Praise God, and with it there is a new level of transparency that I both long for and feel shy of. Choices I make intuitively; that alone in my home I feel very comfortable with, pop up in my mind as convicts awaiting a jury. Was that really an aligned, right on, guided choice or was it reckless? Maybe I just couldn’t do better. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I did it for the money or I was copying someone.
The more people who come to my website, the more people will see archives of spelling mistakes before I hired an editor.
Am I a false prophet because I completely, emotionally wigged out as I was thinking about an old flame? Maybe I am.
These thoughts were stagnating in me. I didn’t want to talk to clients. I didn’t want to write. Ugh, who do I think I am?
The truth is, I have always been brave. I have always been ready and willing to go for the life that is as close to what I really want as I can get. Ready and willing, even if it means doing things drastically different and making some fatal (to my ego) mistakes.
This is how we innovate.
Most of your complaints, you have them because you are too scared to try something new or try something that hasn’t been endorsed by a friend or Dr. Oz. Or you trust in what you see, so much so that you have lost the ability to imagine a vision.
Let’s work towards a vision; rather than barely managing the sticks, and stones, permitted to teach. I would still be an apprentice working under a master shaman, but things are happening quickly now. The planet has been plundered and we are having to change quickly. We are changing quickly. All hands on deck! Everyone is needed as a visionary. Everyone is needed as a teacher, as a healer, as an innovator.
You and me together, lets vision, let’s go for what we really want. Let’s try new ways, and old forgotten ways; AND lets not shy away from our people and hide, because we are not perfect. Let’s offer everything we have with the best intentions, even as we continue to seek guidance and refine.