Oh, I am all about connection! I am desirous and revelatory and found in connection. In service, in friendship, in the woods, in sex, in nature, in eating living foods, here with you, singing to God, I find connection and in connection I feel the reality of who I am.
I love to focus on giving. I am a mother. I deeply desire to care for people. I also love being supported and seeing the miracles that are given to me every minute.
Mmmm, but there is a dance between connecting out and connecting in, and the past few weeks I have found myself reaching out and finding nothing there. Offering up and no one’s receiving. I felt alone like I haven’t in years.
Sometimes you just can’t find the connection, not to the people, the place, the work or even God. But you, darling you, are a microcosm of the whole Universe. Anything you do to yourself, you do with the whole of creation.
So give yourself some. Whatever it is you want to offer the world, give it to yourself. Whatever you are hoping she will say, or he will give or the experience will provide, give it to yourself.
I remember sitting in meditation one day 2 years ago and my energy aligned. You know how water moving through a hose will throw the hose around a bit? That happened in my meridians. It was like a shot of electricity went through me and my wiring smoothed out. Then, through the bottom of my feet and the top of my head I plugged in to the grid.
As we become healthier we nestle into to the divine movements of the Universe.
Giving yourself some allows that development, so you can plug in even deeper. Then you get more out of every bite and your offers are spot on.
To give myself some, I wrote a love letter. I hope it inspires you to get sweet on yourself:
My sweet Love. What can I tell you, but I am so grateful to be you. Every dream you have is just right for me. Every desire you have is just right for me. I will always be here to bring them to life. I am so deeply committed to your happiness. I give my life to it. I love seeing how your desires serve others. I am so proud of your generous, willing and incredibly brave heart.
I love seeing what you have created. Your business, your children, your community, your home all fill me with gratitude and awe. I love seeing how you care for these things but even more I love seeing how you care for yourself. I love seeing you sing, and paint, eat just right and move and sweat and bath and pamper. Every part of your beauty becomes more radiant with your attention.
I see you as unstoppable. I see you as incredibly powerful but I also see you as tender and vulnerable. I can feel where you hold back, shut down and hide from me. I will spend my life inviting you out with my unconditional love and acceptance.
I can’t see what will come next but I am on the ride with you. I know it will be wonderful because I trust you completely and I will be there to support you.
If you feel inspired I would love to hear you give yourself some in the comments below!