I am feeling a little depressed and confused.

I went to the Awakening the Dreamer, Changing the Dream Symposium on Friday. A three hour conversation about changing the dream or the collective will of the planet.

I will give you the cliff notes version of the symposium and then go back to talking about myself

1. Environmental sustainability, social justice and spiritual fulfillment are completely dependent on each other. You can’t have any one of them without all three.

2. We are completely screwed in all three departments at this point. We have killed large areas of the planet, we have starving children and lots of emptiness and misery.

3. This is a result of our collective will. Its like this because we designed it this way. We created our relationship to the planet, to each other, to ourselves and to God.

4. We can change this very quickly if we start now, together. We need lots of people to want to change.

Back to me. I am feeling depressed because even though it was a very solution oriented conversation it brought to the surface a pain that I am always trying to avoid.

I feel heartbroken and helpless. I am devastated, scared and ashamed about the condition of my home and my family. I feel as though I can’t give the polar bears their ice home back or extract the tons of fertilizer killing ocean life. I can’t stop children from being forced to rape and kill or even solve the hunger problem in my own city. I feel incapable of dealing with these problems not just on a practical level but I feel emotionally knocked down and unable to process the empathetic suffering. It drains me.

That is the real problem. I know that I don’t have to do it all by myself and there are so many wonderful organizations already set up to make a big difference. I could lend a hand. I could spread the word and be involved in making changes but I am stopped because I am avoiding the issues because it is emotionally exhausting…

Hold up! Something sounds familiar… Like maybe this is what I do for a living. Watch for my Epiphany

Partially because it is painful and partially because I know I have dysfunctional way of dealing with the pain.  I see this in myself and I see it around me. I am either ignoring what is happening or preaching from a soapbox and racked with guilt every time I turn the ignition on my car.

 

 

So I am now healing the heartbreak so that I can be engaged and intentional about my choices!

If you want to learn a great technique for dealing with any emotional overwhelm follow this link.

http://lillianevemoore.com/EFT

Lovingly

 

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